Emo post.....

Hi guys, as you can see from the above, this is gonna be a pretty emo and sad post. So if you want your day to remain happy, please don't read this.

Okay, firstly, I didn't get the scholarship that I wanted for school. I mean, it would have helped us to save a lot of money, and even though my parents shrug it off, I know that deep down inside they're disappointed but don't want to tell me and hurt my feelings. Which sort of makes it even worse. Plus I prayed so hard day and night for that scholarship, and I felt completely crushed when I heard the news. It was like the info was a weight being thrown onto my chest, and it hurt in a weird way and I couldn't think or breathe normally for a while. I ask myself, why didn't I get that scholarship, and I ask God too, "why didn't you help me get that scholarship?". I now keep it beside my table to remind me that I am not that good and I have to continuously strive to do better.

I also got my phone confiscated by my dad. I apparently wasted a lot of time randomly searching the web on my phone, so the bill went up to like $50, and he got pissed and yelled and slapped me. Yup. I know its my fault, but wouldn't a normal parent just say something like "Okay, you're gonna pay the bill yourself this time" instead of shoving the paper in my face and pushing me around? Plus without my phone I feel so stranded and unable to communicate conveniently.

And lastly, my grades aren't exactly fantastic. I don't want to elaborate much more than this, but my average is probably the lowest in all my three years in RI. At least I still passed decently.

That's about it for my disaster count so far. I know this is the first emo post I've put on this blog, and I hope there won't be too many more of such posts like these. I want to be happy and enjoy life, not spend it meeting tragedy after tragedy. Life's too short for that.